I’m on a new get fit/eat healthy kick and decided to create a tumblr specifically for that.  I do not think I need to lose weight, I am very comfortable in my own skin.  However being more toned and feeling overall healthy can never hurt :P

I grew up being a dancer, and a horseback rider, in addition to an athlete of every sport minus basketball (i just couldn’t get that one down).  For whatever reason I was as thin and tiny as they come.  I could eat 3 whole pizzas to myself and possibly lose weight in the process, which made for being a great dancer.  I am so thankful that my dancing school wasn’t strict on weight, the instructors taught for the love of dancing and thus we were able to have that love as well.  It didn’t matter your height or weight, everyone was welcome, and everyone danced beautifully.  I don’t know how I would have been if I had to stress about being even thinner.  When I was 14 my dancing school closed down, and I decided to just stick with baton twirling, and of course my high schools rockette/color guard team.  I started gaining more weight, nothing dramatic, but I was growing up.  Its unrealistic to think I would stay under 100 pounds when I was getting taller and gaining much more muscle.  Rockettes was tough, long grueling practices every day in the summer, extra practices if we needed them.  But it really kicked us all into shape and was the reason we were the number one color guard in our category for I don’t know how many years.

After high school, I didn’t do as much my first year of college.  I was in dance club sure, but it was nothing to the intensity I was used to.  If it wasn’t for my two month long walking pneumonia/bronchitius/strep/allergy episode, I definitly would have gained the “freshman 15”.  I was too sick to eat so I lost a good 20 pounds.

I transferred around a bunch and ended up back on LI.  I have worked and had internships anddd went to school in the city so walking was my exercise for a while.  I’ve basically stayed the same weight for the last couple of years (roughly 135ish), some years more toned then others, and that’s cool and all but I want to really tone myself up and get stronger.

I think the biggest change I am going through is what I am eating.  I’ve always been active, so working out or going for a run isn’t hard for me, it feels natural.  I also would be able to eat anything and maintain a steady weight.  However now, after cutting out all nonsense snacks and fatty foods, I FEEL better.  Overall I feel more energized, and happy.  I never knew that could happen.

So I guess my stats are simple:

Height: 5’6”

HW: 142

LW: 127 (during my freshman year of college after I got sick)

CW: 133

GW: 125

My goal weigh isn’t even necessary.  I am completely happy with my weight, I just want to be toned, like I’ve said a bunch of times already.  If I get down to 125 I’ll be 100% content and proud of myself.  I know its possible, but I will not do it in an unhealthy way.

I’m all about healthy fitspo, and losing the weight the rightway.  I feel terrible for anyone (both guys and girls) who are suffering from an eating disorder.  These things ARE serious, and its not a joke.  Its not only girls who want to be models that suffer, its dancers and other athletes as well.  I grew up basically on the racetrack, Belmont, Aqueduct, Saratoga Springs, you name it.  My mom exercised racehorses so I was surrounded by jockeys my whole childhood.  I HIGHLY doubt many of you have been inside the jockey room.  In their bathroom, they have 4 stalls, and in the last stall, there’s a higher looking toilet, on the outside of that stall’s door it says “Purging”.  In order to make weight before a race, jockeys will have to purge, sit in a sauna for hours to sweat off some pounds, run some miles, do anything they can to take off the pounds or else they can’t ride.  Grown men, who are already so small, need to be even smaller.  Its awful.

That being said, I do not support eating disorders but I will support you.  Everyone has their own reason for doing what they’re doing, jockeys need the winning race, and it could all come down to their weight.  I can’t tolerate people who say things like “ew I cannot support this disease you have, this is disgusting, you are killing yourself.”  Seriously?  Having an ED isn’t something you can just get rid of.  It consumes you.  And I get that.  I just hope that anyone who has an ED does seek some kind of help, and gets better, so they can live a long, happy, and HEALTHY, life.

:)